I used to think magically. Superstitiously. Obviously this still lingers some. As with all people. At least there must be residue remaining.
Now, for me, prayer is a way of describing the process of us observing What Is, embracing What Is, and struggling with What Is.
Have you read Shusaku Endo’s Silence? If this doesn’t challenge our magical and superstitious beliefs, nothing will.
Are your beliefs about prayer deconstructing? Come join many others who can help you through it as we go through it ourselves.