The Disturbed Pastor

"The Disturbed Pastor" cartoon by nakedpastor David Hayward

“The Disturbed Pastor” cartoon by nakedpastor David Hayward


I was a disturbed pastor. Meaning… I constantly struggled with my calling and vocation, as well as with the Church and its theology. For 30 years!

Now that I’m free of it, I have no regrets. The fight was worth it. I’ve not only learned from it, but grew from it. I do not reject it. I see now it is all subsumed into who I am.

And I’m grateful.

I have news! I’m going to be launching, by the end of this month, a course and community for pastors struggling with the ministry, leaving the ministry, or having left the ministry. You can check out what I’ve done so far with it HERE.


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7 Responses

  1. Caryn LeMur says:

    My hope is that your new site, for pastors that are leaving the full or part-time ministry, is a success.

    Those pastors need a safer place to explore their thoughts, and find kindred hearts that will not condemn them, bully them back into line, or leak the information to their employer.

  2. Jordan says:

    I always thought you were quite the disturbing individual 😛

  3. Thanks Caryn. I’m looking forward to it.

    I am disturbing Jordan, especially to myself.

  4. purvez says:

    ‘disturbing, especially to myself’. That brought a wry smile to myself……because that’s what I am too.

    Although I don’t post as often here, I do ‘read’ everything that you draw. Many thanks for your output.

  5. Jamie says:

    Hello Mr. Hayward my name is Jamie Dennis. An by the way I use to have a very good friend named after you. Anyway I am Sophia…. My daughter came to me seven months ago an never read a Bible before told me mommy I am you an you are I… I almost hit the v floor since only two weeks before that I had read it in the Bible. Anyway I need some guidance. So when you have a free moment if you could please email me an we can talk

  6. sure jamie i’ll email you