Is Your Church Holding You Back?

"Church Holding You Back?" cartoon by David Hayward

“Church Holding You Back?” cartoon by David Hayward

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My experience with the church is that I stayed until I believed it was impossible for me to grow in that context anymore. It happened many times.

This is also true of the last church. I left because I felt like I no longer fit inside the box.

Being the pastor made it even trickier. But I left the ministry and the church in 2010.

Outside the church was the only way I felt I could continue my personal growth.

Now, Lisa and I visit churches. Trying things out. It may or may not last. I don’t care. Sure, there are triggers. Sure, I sometimes feel myself being manipulated or pulled back in. But I’m in a place now where I won’t and don’t let that happen to me.

I’ve always had a relationship with the church. After all, it is my family of origin. But now, after I have matured somewhat, I am strong and free enough to negotiate the terms of our relationship in a way that prevents the church from violating my boundaries. I can come and go as I please.

You see, as the cartoon suggests, it means cutting that string, that string of unhealthy codependence, manipulation, and control that nurtures immaturity.

For me personally, it reminds me of a vision quest. I had to leave my tribe and go into my own wilderness to find myself. Once I did, I could return to the human race on my own terms as an adult. This isn’t for everybody, but this is how I describe my journey. So far.

I can fly if I want to.

Do you know what I’m talking about? Are you experiencing a lot of anxiety about this? Talk with me about it. This is one of the things I do that I am most passionate about.

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6 Responses

  1. Jack Russell says:

    I like the story of the vision quest – going into the wilderness and then returning basing thing on ones own principles and values not what has been handed down. A right of passage to maturity perhaps. Maybe more of this would be of benefit to the church and wider society.

  2. Nancy says:

    Couldn’t have said it better. The freedom I have now still at times takes my breath away.

  3. Cherryl says:

    Romans thru Philemon – Epistles of Paul – King James Version

    I left the church after a lifetime of church. I am 56 now. I study the Bible for myself and I found what the churches have missed – or purposely do not teach – The church, the body of Christ – We are the church –

  4. Cherryl says:

    🙂

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