Be Uncontrollable!

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Be Uncontrollable!

be uncontrollable cartoon by nakedpastor david hayward

Description: A pastor inside a church points to a woman who left and he says to those still with him, “Good riddance! She was so uncontrollable anyway!”

BE UNCONTROLLABLE!

I’m uncontrollable.

What I mean is I do not like being controlled and so I do things to escape being controlled.

I was a compliant child growing up. Even as a teen I was compliant. But underneath I was planning my escape. I did when I was 18 when I went to college.

But it’s interesting because there have been times I’ve ended up being controlled by an authoritative, charismatic leader. 

The reason? Maybe you can identify with this. It’s because I was so happy to find a leader and a mission I believed in. I loved him and what he was doing. So I committed myself to him and what he was doing.

Look… when I serve, I don’t serve half-heartedly. I’m all in! I’m the best when I commit.

So I served them all one-hundred percent!

Then, after a while, I would notice that I’d lost myself. I’d lost touch with myself and my family. I realized I was totally under the spell of this leader. It suddenly dawned on me that I was being controlled.

So I’d make my move. 
I would say something. 

And the retaliation and abuse would ensue.

Many of you know what I’m talking about.

If you’re like me, here’s what happened to you: 

  1. You served well. One-hundred percent!
  2. Then, you realized you were actually a slave, not a servant. 
  3. You now knew you were being controlled.
  4. So you did what you had to do to secure your escape. 
  5. And then you paid for it with abuse.

Good for you! I’m proud of you.

You’re uncontrollable. 

And free!


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