"Sometimes I cannot figure out why you are a pastor," I do not find this strange or even new. I've been asked this so many times, and sometimes by myself. I am a conflicted man. When I'm in I want out. When I'm out I need in. Lisa reminded me that I have always struggled with this. I've always been conflicted. That's what makes me who I am. Sure, she wishes I didn't have to struggle so much, but then I wouldn't be David. Some people inside are going to wonder what I'm doing here. And... if I am here... why don't I just shut up and behave. In the end, I'm not shocked. But I bet some think I need therapy.