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Lady poverty love me tonight dress me in sackcloth where once i wore white and disperse my fine linens to the naked and the poor lady poverty enter my door give me the riches of my lord let all suffering come to an end embracing all hunger let me call it my friend let my love be made perfect without seeking reward lady poverty enter my door give me the riches of my Lord and if Jesus was a poor man then like him i too must be and if Jesus was a beggar than lift me up to my knees for if love never seeks out its own if love always gives when there's no reward shown let us be beggars and paupers and servants at best laboring always so that others might rest that the sweet name of Jesus our tongues might confessI weep when I read these lyrics again after so many years because they were knitted into my spirit, my psyche. So much so that I'm not sure they can be extracted. There are nothing wrong with these lyrics as long as one remembers this is Talbot's prayer and not necessarily one's own. I failed to make this distinction and made this vow. I believed that because Jesus was poor I had to be also. Which isn't true. I know that now. But I sang it all the time then. I sang it in the church in which I was ministering. When I was a guest speaker in other churches I sang it there. I reduced my wardrobe to one set of clothes and shoes. Lisa calls this season my "Gandhi years" because I was also influenced by Gandhi and Mother Teresa, etc. (Sorry Lisa. It pains me to think of these times and the pain I caused you.) We may agree that the love of money makes money an idol. Mammon. But the hatred of money makes it an idol also. For instance, whether we fight for or against something, the impulse is the same, assigning supreme power to the object of our love or hatred. This is true for money. What I didn't realize at the time was that, because of my immaturity and lack of wisdom, I actually attributed to money more power than less in my own life. I've struggled with money ever since. As a result, I possess what I might call a poverty mentality. I know that recovery from this is one of my personal projects. It is probably the most strenuous assignment I've had to tackle to date.