This is Sister Marie. She is a nun and spiritual director in a Roman Catholic monastery in Canada. I had the incredible pleasure of visiting her last weekend. It was the first time I'd seen her in 25 years.
Around 27 years ago I experienced a profound spiritual crisis. I desperately needed help. Somehow I came across Thomas Merton's
Seven Story Mountain and immediately knew I needed a spiritual director.
I clandestinely researched high and low until someone told me about this woman. She is highly trained, qualified and very wise as a spiritual director. I contacted her and she agreed to meet with me one time to test the waters. After we met, she agreed to meet with me for one hour a week. We did that for 2 years!
She helped me walk through one of the most critical times in my spiritual life. In fact, it was due to her that I discerned that I should enter the ordained ministry. I wouldn't have if it wasn't for her. I don't regret doing that or serving the church for so long in that capacity. She knew I wrestled constantly with this call. She knew I struggled with the church. She knew I fought against the system. She knew I kicked against the pricks. But she helped me see that I needed to serve exactly there. I wouldn't be who I am today. I certainly wouldn't be the nakedpastor. I'm grateful for all of it.
I remember one day whining to her that I was a stick-in-the-mud! I was so frustrated with my indecision and fear about the ministry. She peacefully sat there, totally accustomed to my chronic confusion, and calmly asked, "
What does it feel like to be a stick-in-the-mud?" She helped me be honest with myself, to be myself, and to love who I was. That was grace.
I told her how much she meant to me, including that story. She laughed. I couldn't thank her enough. She was so grateful that I came to visit her because she had just retired the previous weekend and wondered if she'd done any good.
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Indeed!" I said, "
You have!"
She has inspired me to provide spiritual coaching in the same manner she did. If you want to talk with me, check out my talk page.