Do You Experience Terror?
Description: Two overlapping circles. On the left, “When you’re taught that God makes you suffer when you’re bad.” On the right, “When your life is hard.” Where they overlap, “TERROR”.
DO YOU EXPERIENCE TERROR?
I know. I went to Bible College and seminary twice!
I studied theology.
I won the prize for Reformed Theology.
Ya. I did that!
And do you want to know what I learned?
That a lot of theology is the attempt to explain suffering.
Of course, for me, being such a good Christian...
Suffering was an indication that something was wrong.
And also because of my theology…
Something was wrong with me!
I still remember the terror of those thoughts.
Funny… last week I was banned on Instagram for 24 hours. All I knew was that I committed some community violation. I have no idea what it was. I asked. Still no answer. I have no idea.
God was like that.
I knew I must have done something wrong, but I had no idea what it was. Still don’t.
Well… now I know that none of this is true.
What a relief!