Why Can Deconstruction Make You Feel Lonely?

Why Can Deconstruction Make You Feel Lonely?

If you are a part of a church community, and you start to question your beliefs, you will probably start to feel more and more isolated from everyone else.

You used to feel like a part of the group, that you belonged to the community. But now, because your mind is changing, you are starting to feel at odds with the herd mentality.

This is normal!

We all know what it's like to feel lonely while in a crowd of people. Sometimes the only healthy action we can take is to separate ourselves from the group, find some solitude, and figure out how we want to move forward...

With the herd or independently. “The time you feel lonely is the time you most need to be by yourself. Life’s cruelest irony.” This is because you now realize that up to now you've had a codependent relationship with the group. In order to belong, you sacrificed your personal autonomy and agency.  So you need to separate and maybe even divorce the group. You need to embrace a new kind of loneliness.

This always starts in your head and heart, then eventually leads to you actually doing it in real life. But I want to promise you that on the other side of this separation and divorce, you will learn how to become a strong and independent person who chooses interdependent relationships and avoids codependent ones.

You will still feel loneliness. But you will see that your solitude has become a necessary ingredient in your ability to find, create, and be in healthy relationships. Because spiritual independence is a new and dynamic way of being... in solitude and with others.